Jude Law, who co-stars with Nicole Kidman in the new movie Cold Mountain, says if he could give Kidman one gift, it would be a beach in Fiji.

Kidman embraces the idea, but won't explain further. "That's a secret," she told Good Morning America's Diane Sawyer. "But he's right. Absolutely right."

Reports are that Kidman has orchestrated a utopia-like South Pacific Christmas: a Fiji resort reserved exclusively for her family, including her ex-husband Tom Cruise, and his girlfriend Penelope Cruz.

Kidman's own relationship with rocker Lenny Kravitz remains a question mark. Kidman has said in the past that she would give up "everything," including her career, if she could have a wonderful relationship.

She certainly has a great career, but what about the relationship?

"I can't answer that. I don't know," Kidman said. "I would love to be able to walk away from all of this into, sort of, I suppose, a different stage of my life, and I hope that that does happen."

But Kidman didn't want to talk about her relationship to Kravitz. "I don't mean to be impolite," she said.

"Oh, go for it," urged Sawyer.

"Oh, all right," Kidman said. "Shove off!"

Asked if she was enjoying a happy time in her life, Kidman said she believes happiness is not a constant for anyone. "I think it was put so succinctly in The Hours, where [it was asked], 'What is happiness?' And there [are] moments of happiness and then there's everything else in between, which gives you the appreciation of when there are those, those moments."

A Daydreamer, But No Airhead

Her latest project, Cold Mountain, is the tale of an awkward southern belle and her true love, set against the backdrop of the Civil War. Kidman plays Ada Monroe, a woman who spends a lot of time waiting, surviving, believing and growing wise.

During the shooting, Anthony Minghella, the director of Cold Mountain pointed out to Kidman how she differed from co-star Renee Zellweger.

"He said 'You're air and Renee is Earth.' And I was like: 'What does that mean? I'm an airhead?' " Kidman said, "He said that I walk around with my head in the clouds all the time, and that, you know, he said, 'sometimes you have to put your feet on the Earth, Nicole.' "

Kidman acknowledged she does daydream, and is inside her head more than most people.

"I can space out — put it that way," Kidman said. "I can go through huge periods of time where I just don't say anything, and all I do is think so — it can be a bit dangerous. I get accused of being out of reach."

Young Bride, Fledgling Career

Her quiet, daydreamy demeanor is partly because she is shy and a little unsure of herself, the actress acknowledges.

"Shy, and also not quite knowing my place, you know, in the world," Kidman said. "I got married really young, so suddenly, everything that you're defined by is defined by your partner and so you don't quite know who you are or what you are."

Kidman married Cruise in 1990, at which point he had starred in a series of hit movies, including Risky Business, Top Gun and Rainman. Kidman's career, on the other hand, was just getting started.

"I met my husband when I was 21 and I was married by the time I was 23, and I had two kids by the time I was 27," Kidman said.

By that point, Kidman says she felt more confident about who she was.

"I think as a woman, towards your late 20s, you start to go, 'OK, now I know, I have some sort of idea of what I need to exist and what I'm going to need to be happy.' "

For Kidman, her starring role in Moulin Rouge was a turning point.

"I wanted to have some sort of film or something that I thought was an important piece of work," she said. "And then Moulin Rouge came along. Moulin Rouge for me was a turning point and it was something where I felt very, that I felt very satiated by."

Waiting for Happiness

Next, Kidman starred in The Hours, in a role that landed her an Oscar. The glamorous actress donned a fake nose and drab clothing to play the role of tortured writer Virginia Woolf, who ultimately committed suicide.

In Cold Mountain, Kidman plays a very different kind of woman, one who tries her best to believe in moments of happiness and wait for them.

Fellow actor Law said the movie taught him to keep ask questions like " 'What direction am I going?' and 'What is the direction home?' "

And Kidman says her character, Ada, was asking questions too.

"I think she's saying, 'Can I still believe in this? I need it, I want to believe in it, and are you still out there?' " Kidman said. "The simple clarity of it is that these two people meet, one of them says 'I'll come back' and the other one says 'I'll be waiting,' and that's what happens."

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